Just Keep TRI-ing

Thu 07/02/2008 Malam tadi aku susah sangat nak tidur, dentam dentum bunga api buat aku rasa macam berada dalam zon perang. Pukul berapa aku tertidur pun aku tak sedar. Tiba-tiba jam loceng aku berbunyi pada pukul 5 am. Siap serba ringkas, packing etc, aku dah ada kat rumah Daa pukul 5.45am. masih awal lagi kataku dalam hati. So aku pun relax2 dulu hisap rokok (leklu sapkok lu.. bak kata ikhwan) Janjinya pukul 6 am.. tunggu punya tunggu pukul 6.45 baru diorang semua sampai. Kitorang ada 9 orang semuanya. Wafi (Presiden seumur hidup) Aku (Setiausaha) Syikin 'where you get your kaki from?' (Bendahari) Ninut Da'a Ikhwan Zaitun Nyza Hanif 'the client' Dari sinilah bermulanya POK FC. (Pok tu kalau org Sarawak cakap macam Dude, Bro, Mate ke Mat camtu. FC tu Friends Club) So sebelum pergi kitorang dah bayar satu kepala RM 110 pada cik bendahari, tu nak cover petrol, accommodation, teket ferri etc, tak ternasuk makan. Ni kiranya program pertama POK Frens Club la. Excited ga...

'You are a procrastinator.. go ask your PDL trainer what procrastinating means' . That was exactly what Datuk Ayob, my bos when I was working with TETO Engineering said to me back in 1998. I was fresh from college that time. The company sent everybody for a week live in training cum motivational course called PDL (Professional Development and Leadership). There we learnt a lot about how to become successful in life. We were expected to be overhauled after the course, and back at work with new attitude. A month after the course, I was back to my old habit or attitude to be exact. Now 10 years has passed. I supposed I am more mature and wise, but one thing I cannot change, PROCRASTINATE. I wonder if there is any cure to this disease. I believe it has been infested humankind since we came out of Africa. I want to make it my 2008 resolution. To eradicate that habit. I came to realised this last friday when I asked one of my friends for a round of pool, at the Petroleum Lounge. She...

I was a person who never really cares about new years.. year in.. year out are just another day. Looking back what i have been through this year, I cannot help but take a sojourn and count my blessings. 2007 was the year full of surprises, achievements, oppurtunities and happiness. It proved that, with GOD bless, you can achieve anything you want if you believe. Life is not all about luck as many believe. It is hard for me to sum up what i have been through without Looking at it retrospectively. I did superbly well in my studies. I will not forget how mom reacted when i called her that afternoon to tell her about my last semester's result. She was not well that day. Her voice was raspy and she could barely speak. In tears she said 'Alhamdullillah, praise to the Lord, I will fast tomorrow. I pray for you everyday' . I could not hold my tears, I am not a kind of person who like to show my emotion, espescially with my family. She was sick but she still insisted to fast. Her wa...

It was the eve of 6 Dec. I just got home from Dragon Seafood attending our Project's Annual Dinner. I have to leave early, got a morning flight to catch tomorrow. The karaoke session was about to start when i left. Nobody saw me sneaking out from the side exit. Well why would anybody bother, i was only a cog in a wheel. I hate to wake up in the wee hour to catch the 6am flight to KL. Chell, as always, was ever willing to take me to the airport. I set the alarm clock at 4am in my mobile , and dive into my ever inviting bed. My dainty doona felt so good that i fell asleep almost instantly. In my sleep i heard a femiliar noise ding ding ding.. argh, it was the sound of an incoming text message. I woke up, grab my tiny mobile left accross the room (so as to prevent me from turning off the alarm and resuming my sleep). It was a birthday wish from a good friend of mine, i smiled and went back to sleep. I am a light sleeper and it is hard for me to get back into REM when woken up. 10 minu...

Prrangg..prrangg.. prrangg.. I heard the thunderous noise in my sleep.. I was then wondering.. was I dreaming? I woke up and still heard the noise.. followed by the sound of people screaming and shouting. I sat on my bed, half asleep and wondering what was going on. It was 11 am Sunday the 25th November 2007. I ran towards the window and hastily pulled the blind. From the window of my 21st floor room at Hotel Nikko, I was knocked for six to see two police helicopters outside of my windows. As I looked the street down below I saw people in their thousands were running in many directions like a school of fish being disturbed by an oncoming boat. There were policemen well equipped with amour and hard hat and masks, complete with their cavalry. The police were shooting tear gas and water canons to the marching crowd towards the British High Commissions. The saga finally ends at about 4pm. The usually busy Jalan Ampang and Jalan Tun Razak were strangely quiet. All the businesses were clos...

Imagine... all this while you think you live in abundance. Life has been good, to some even live like royalties. We take all that for granted. All that glitters come so easy we forget to appreciate all the little things we have.. not until the law of gratitude takes it 360 degree turn. Happiness can come in various of ways... one can have money, status, materials and all sort of other 'hardwares' of happiness. But believe me even the money from all piggy banks around the world wont buy happiness.. not without someone you can share them with... i am talking about friends. For so long i dont care what others think about me.. and i dont need to work hard to attract and keep my friends close. I believe im a good person and i will attract good people. God has always blessed me with good friends every where i go. I really treasure them. But i guess my magic doesnt work here, in this corner of Borneo. Living in this strange place, alone, making me nuts. Just as i thought i still have ...

Bismillahhirrahmannirrahim.. Lord, I am lost, I have forgotten about you, about my responsibilities. Please dont turn your back on me oh Lord. I remember you said If we walk towards you, you will come to us running. I am not your worthy subject. I will only think about you whenever I am in troubles, I pray for your guiding lights, strength, wisdom. I know you will never stop listening and for that I know I will be okay, for I have you watching over me. Pic: Sun shower at Niah Pic: Lights at Niah